Time

There are tons of things that I can do with my time. So what should I spend it on? This is a question that I constantly have to answer.

I am one of the worst at maintaining relationships. I have this thing about making so many friends that it makes keeping up with them all very difficult. I also have this thing about making friends who don’t get along with other friends of mine. This makes things “fun” to deal with sometimes, and a lot of my time is spent either helping mend relationships, or giving out advice that people really didn’t want in the first place, but they really need to hear.

Managing my time isn’t something that I do very well. I have a calendar on my phone, my iPod, and my computer at work and at home, but do you think that keeps me organized? Nope. The thing is, I don’t remember to write things down like I need to and I lose track of what I’m doing. So when I sometimes think that I have all this extra free time, a lot of the time there is something that comes up from three weeks back that I totally forgot about. This makes budgeting time pretty tricky, seeing as I plan to work on something in a time slot that is already taken.

I also seem to bite of more that I can chew - all the time! It’s a mix between my needing to be busy all the time and my need to please people. I hate letting people down, that gets me in such a bad mood. At times it would be nice to have a small “I-don’t-care” attitude for situations like that, but the thing is - I really do care! This really takes up a good chuck of time, time that I could be used to work on previous commitments. I’m constantly trying to improve in that area.

So this is where I am - in this constant “not enough time” phase. The quote “I have all the time in the world” seems so untouchable, unreachable to me. I’d love to one day know what “all the time in the world” feels like. Next weekend sounds like a good time to do that…or am I already doing something?